Never Ruin a Good Picture By Failing to Exaggerate: Back to Blogging and Subconscious Revelations

Hello! For any of you who have missed me over the past couple of years, I'M BACK! You see, I had a REALLY big job to do for a friend, and I just felt too guilty blogging when I could be working on that job, so I took a long break from this in order to finish that, and it is now FINISHED!!!!!

Some of you may remember the job, I posted the first image that I completed on here a while back. My friend's daughter had gotten married, and somehow the professional photographs that were given to her had horrible, dark shadows across faces in a lot of the images. It was distressing to say the least. If you know anything about Photoshop, you know that removing shadows isn't easy! Fortunately, it is doable, and now, it is done! Here is one of the images, before and after (I should note that I didn't take the pictures, I just fixed the shadows- I'd give photo credit to the photographer who did take them, but I'm guessing they probably wouldn't want that in this case). :)

Well, since it's been a few years, yes YEARS, since I've done more than quick posts and Sneak Peeks on here (with a couple exceptions), it's hard to know where to pick up! Instead of trying to fill in everything that I've missed, I think I'll just start with where I am at now.

Our church just finished a sermon series on prayer. We were challenged to really consider what it was we wanted, to figure out what our biggest prayer would be, and then to pray it, in faith, even if it seemed impossible. Especially if it seemed impossible, because with God all things are possible! Well, I figured out what my prayer would be/is and I've been praying.

My prayer is to be a professional artist. Not just someone who does art, but someone who is paid to do art. Someone who is paid enough to do art that the income is more than enough to cover our family's financial needs. This, to me, is a huge prayer, because I've been an artist for some time now (I even have a college degree in art) and even though I've been fortunate enough to sell pieces here and there over the years, I've never come anywhere close to being able to support our family through my art. God would have to make it happen if I were ever to be a professional artist, and it seems that He is working on just that, little by little. He's started by pointing out a few things that I've believed that have held me back from being successful. I realized the first as my husband and I were driving home from a meeting with a group of our close friends. At the meeting, one of our friends had been moved to tears when talking about their desired future career. On the drive home I caught myself thinking that there must have been something in their past that had put some kind of wall up in their mind, making that person believe that they could never be in the field they desired to be in. That is when it hit me, one of my own personal walls. I have long believed that I could never make a living as an artist. I had agreed with my parents when they told me that very thing, years ago. My parents were not being harsh or intentionally trying to crush my dreams at the time, they were just trying to help me be practical...realistic. I was in college and wanted to major in art with an emphasis in photography. They fought me on that desire for years, saying that it would be almost impossible to make a living as an artist or a photographer and that I should instead major in something that would make a good career for me to "fall back on" when I failed in the arts. I never realized it, but somewhere in my heart, I agreed with their statement, that I would never be able to make a living as an artist or photographer. They eventually gave up their dispute and allowed me to major in art photography, but somehow that belief was stuck in my subconscious and a lot of my actions in my attempts to sell my artwork failed before they even started because I believed that I would fail. Upon realizing this subconscious belief, my husband and I prayed that God would reveal to me His thoughts on the matter and who He created me to be. Since then, I have been doing my best to immediately push out any negative thoughts that come calling regarding not being able to make it as an artist. Believe me, there are several coming at me now, as I type this proclamation.

The second wall that I have noticed in my subconscious became obvious to me a couple of nights ago. Once again, we were meeting with a group of our friends (we've been blessed with some pretty great friends). We were watching a video from our pastor on the current sermon series our church is doing. It is called God@Work, and it is just what I need right now, of course! Anyway, there were a few things that Pastor Terry Crist said that really stuck out to me. The first being, "Work is an expression of what's in our soul." The second, "Work is an invitation to divine partnership." When I heard those statements, I once again had flashbacks of college. This time it was the classes or more specifically, the critiques that were brought to mind.

There were several art professors that I could never please in college. They thought that my work lacked substance and that the meaning behind the work wasn't deep enough (which, back then it probably wasn't). What I understood them to mean was that the meaning behind my art wasn't dark enough, or that it wasn't a statement in direct opposition to something. One comment that I heard all the time in art school was, "It's not art if there isn't meaning behind it. You can't just make a beautiful picture and call it art." I believed that statement, but was always troubled by it. There were so many things that I wanted to photograph or paint, just because they were beautiful, yet I would never be able to do that and receive a passing grade unless they had a deeper meaning behind them. Now, there were always students there who made up their meaning on the spot during critiques then laughed about it later, and students who had really deep meanings, but not the technical ability to back them up. I was always caught somewhere on the outside, wanting to show the beauty that I saw around me, but not having a deep enough reason to justify my choice to do so. Anyway, in college, I learned to go a little dark, to photograph social injustices and comment on the fears of life. After I graduated, the desire of my heart turned my art back to the beautiful, the lovely, the nostalgic and serene. When I heard Pastor Terry's statement about work being an expression of our soul, it hit me, it's okay to photograph something just because it is beautiful, especially if it's God's beauty that is reflecting through it. The images that I create are life as I've experienced it and as I've seen it experienced by others. They may be fanciful renditions of reality at times, but they speak to my heart and to the hearts of others that have seen them of God's promises to those who love Him. There doesn't have to be a dark meaning behind something for it to be art, just a meaning. The purpose in my art is to reflect the Creator, to capture an image of how I imagine God sees or feels about His creation. Even when I'm photographing family portraits, weddings or corporate events, I always pray that I would be able to capture, in camera, what God sees in the hearts of the people that I'm photographing. That I would be able to illustrate who He had created them to be and to show the gifting that makes them unique. I am realizing that for years I've discounted my art and my artistic ability because my images didn't have any intentional statement behind them. They were created out of admiration and love for His creation and I'm finally realizing that not only is that okay, it's what God has put in my heart to do, to illustrate His presence and His love for us. Romans 1:20 says, "For since the creation of the world God's invisible qualities--His eternal power and divine nature--have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that people are without excuse." If my artwork can speak to others of God's existence and His love for them, then for me, work truly is, "an invitation to divine partnership," and my ministry. I'm am so thankful for this gift.

Now, since I've talked so much about my artwork, I'll share a piece that I finally finished last night! It was started many years ago and left uncompleted. I discovered it again last night, hidden on an old hard drive and I was able to bring it to a completed state. I hope you enjoy it!

Antiqued Bridge. This pond can be found at the Japanese Gardens of the Huntington in San Marino, CA.
You can purchase prints of this image and other Japanese Garden images on my website, here.

Oh, I almost forgot! Since all of this discovery about my subconscious beliefs has begun, I've stepped out just a bit into the art world. I now have artwork hanging at Talebu Coffee and Wine Cafe located at 2095 N. Alma School Rd. Chandler, AZ 85224. There will be an artist reception on Friday, Sept. 20th at 7PM. If you live in the Phx. area, I hope you will come check it out! Here are some images of the work that is hanging.